its a sad day

I got two new pairs of shoes.

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Burial for the sneakers sometime next week.

Year End Review.

I got the idea from Leah.

-I met the following amazing people; Mike D, Leah, Amy, Natalie, Alex, Sam, Craig, Mitch, Malcolm, Ed, Derrick, Troy, Meghan, Tobias, Eben, Stephen, Godwin, Adrian, Marty, Melissa, Julia, Alfred, Beardo, Dan, Matt M, Matt B, Marc, Mark, HotShotJen, Rod, DMC, Brad Lock, Brad the Alien, Brad the Anarchist, Big Dan, Mimi, New Wave, Heather, Jared, Josh, Cory, Todi, Ted, Sarah, Lauren (Alex), Ala, Nicole, Emily, Kristen, Frank, Adam, Scott, Jessica, Meghan, Dan, Brent, Celery, Mark Black, Robert, Clint, Cat, Remi, Heather, Gabrielle, Kelly, Jenna, Meghan Best, Dave, Ben, Ellie, Jason, Sophie, Cory, Chai, Horseface, Lindsay, Chantal, Riley, Ed, Rob, Ryan, Danny, Jordan.. it goes on and on.
- I spent every Wednesday from March until now at Bearly’s.
- I actually sang at Bearly’s, White Rabbit has been my thing for a while.
- I had my first sober kiss.
- I lost my virginity for REALLLLZ this time.
- I had a romantic fling.
- I saw lots of ducks that fall.
- I had an out of character one night stand.
- I did a lot of drugs, and learnt from that.
- I quit doing drugs.
- I started dressing like an adult.
- I went home countless times so my mom would do my laundry.
- I’ve been to more shows than I can count.
- Jenna took pictures of me for a final photo project.
- I got my first piercing, that being my ears.
- I went to a Choke show with Savannah, my earrings got ripped out and Savannah got crushed.
- I went on my first dinner date at a cheesy chinese restaurant.
- I danced in the rain infront of my apartment building with Savannah.
- I was in a movie with Savannah for another friends final project.
- Me and Mike D hung out on my lawn for hours until 7 30 in the morning.
- Confessed all my sins to immediate family.
- I’ve had late-night potato making with everybody I know.
- Potlucks have become huge in the last couple of months.
- Lots of heartache.
- I got caught stealing underwear, the one night I cared and wanted to look sexy.
- I went to get my fingerprints taken with Alex.
- I went to crazy amounts of theme parties at Leah’s, which included; pirate, time warp, zombie prom, suicide, orange,
- My little sister was severely ill this year with HSP and Berger disease.
- She is doing much better.
- I organized a benefit show for my mother and the financial troubles the illness has caused.
- I had an amazingly refreshing mushroom trip with Leah.
- I became a lot closer to my brother, who started smoking pot this year.
- After yelling at me about drugs during high school, he starts smoking pot at 22.
- After 6 years of smoking, I finally had a cigarette in front of my dad.
- Savannah moved out of our apartment.
- Eviction notice later, I live on Cunard now with 3 actors.
- I got my job at Subway in May, although I do bitch a lot, I like my co-workers.
- I went on a road trip to Truro for an amazing all-ages punk show.
- I became aware of punk rock, Divorce Records, and CRAZYWAVE.
- I shared many barrel of breakfasts with Mike D at 4 in the morning.
- Monday nights at Scrabble, then Reflections for Rockin4$$$s.
- My favorite uncle Jack died, he looked like a turtle.
- I screwed up school hard this last semester.
- I took Leah to the Cornboil this summer, it was pretty hilarious.
- A couple of times groups of friends made it to Halifax for some serious out of two shinnanigans.
- I succession of unfortunate personal dilemmas happened: I suck at real life and school at the same time.
- Stephen takes us on grand adventures on the outskirts of town.

Anyone think of anything else?

HOOLLLYY-DAAAAYYYYZZZ

Christmas Eve was spent at Denis' mothers.
She has the most precious dogs.
I sat on the floor hugging one of them for most of the night.
That family never seizes to amaze me.
I don't understand how Denis fits in there.
He is a pretty cool cat.
This year was actually not too bad.
Dinner was at a reasonable hour, present opening happened early too.
I ended up napping in a spare room for the last hour though.
I stayed up most of the night.
My brother, Denis and I went outside for a little Christmas pot.
At 3 I went to sleep, only to be awoken by the devil at 6.
Usually I set my alarm for 5 just to a pest when I was kid, so I can't blame her.
She opened presents forever and its a joy seeing her do it.
She got a lot of awesome things, and she deserves all of it.
My brother and I went to my aunt's for lunch.
This also the same lunch I got my beloved comment from my grandfather.
I hung out with Justin most of the afternoon.
For supper we went to Michelle's.
I basically got a little hammered and confessed all my sins to my family.
Whatever I shouldn't of brought up, I did.
Its almost good to get yelled at sometimes.
When I got home I ended up spending forever on the phone with Meghan.
We were both drunk and talking Christmas nonesense.
The next day Savannah and I were supposed to be heading to Moncton with her mother's car.
The weather didn't like this idea but sweet sweet Matt came to get us down in the sticks.
We went to Gumby's for some pre-drinking.
Gumby is hilarious, one of my favorite reasons to visit the city.
At 10 we hopped into a cab just in time for the Bad Motels.
Halifax was represented, the Bad Motels, the Hemmingways, me, Savannah, Emily, Brad, Tiffany, Jen, we were there.
The show was awesome, I had so much fun.
This dirty old crustpunk traded me a Descendants 'I don't wanna grow up' pin for a Lindsay pin.
I was so floored.
General good vibes for this day in Moncton
When the show finished we went to a boy named Harper's house for his birthday.
Before we got there the rest of the party left, but their booze stayed behind.
I broke 5 rules I set for myself that night.
Rules are meant to be broken, but its amazing what a little being out of town/booze will do to a person.
If you know me, you know the story.
I don't expect I repeat of that to happen, but gosh darnit it was fun.
We finally went to bed at 12 in the afternoon.
By 2 I was awake and realized I had to get out of that house.
Awkward goodbyes later, my dad came to get me and Savannah at a fire station.
We sat at Don Cherry's hating life.
Hang-overs are the worst.
We had to hang out at the mall on Boxing Day for HOURS.
I felt like a disgusting dirt ball the entire time.
When I got home, I told as many people as possible this story, including my mother.
I spent the rest of the night on the phone with Halifax, watching movies and making puzzles.
At 10 this morning I went to Janice's.
We spent the day tracking down the ladies from work.
I love all of those ladies like extra moms.
This is my first trip back that I got to see every one of them in one day.
We had lunch at the restaurant next door, it wouldn't be hanging out with Janice without lunch.
Crazy 8 count-down and the Beatles ended the night.
Aside from ofcourse the Acadian poutines that arrived.
This trip has definitely elevated No-Funswick, to Somewhat-Funswick
I've been all home all night making puzzle and eating as much free food as possible.
Halifax couldn't be further away right now.
I'd pay money to be wrapped in my bedspread talking to Ed.

Christmas cheer

Why do you find it neccesary to make me feel like poop?
My whole life, I listen to you call me fat.
I felt fat and gross until I turned 20 years old.
Finally I live in a city far away from all this negative bullshit.
Without fail though, everytime, why do I even expect it to be different?
We're sitting there talking about my little sister's disease and he comes up with this gem.
The man is even getting creative with his put-downs.
"Oh are you going to give her a kidney? You're fat, you should give her a kidney, you'll lose weight!"
Are you fucking kidding me?
My face got so red, the whole room stopped talking.
Thanks Grandpa, Merry fucking Christmas to you too.
I can't wait to go back to Halifax, I feel better about myself in that city.

I'll write about the good parts of Christmas once my good mood comes back.

NB

I went to replace my bank card and to buy booze.
I was in and out of work within an hour.
I got to my house around 5 and started the Bearly’s madness.
Riley showed up ridiculously early followed by Mike D.
Adrian and Kristen came over too.
Around 11 part of the group got into a cab and headed down to the madness.
I asked to older ladies to buy two smokes off of them.
They ended up giving them to me in exchange for a song.
The deal was booze and smokes for the rest of night if I sang a song with one of them.
Who could pass up such an offer?
The usual crowd made an appearance, it was terrific.
I got up and sang “You’re so Vain” with that lady.
I made an ass out of myself but hey, it’s just Bearly’s.
I sang “White Rabbit” too.
Stephen showed up with baby powder all over his face, which I only noticed when I gave him a hello kiss on the cheek.
Baby powder dries out your mouth, fool.
Godwin even came!
By the end of the night 8 of us decided to go to breakfast.
Me, Mike D, Ed, Riley, Nicole, New Wave, Godwin and Stephen, it was a pretty ridiculous meal.
Four drunk people, four sober people.
Jon Epworth came and dropped a poster on our table.
I immediately picked it up, ripped in two, balled it up and threw it in his face.
Yeaaaaaaah.
On the walk home, myself and Godwin discussed the all-ages scene of the present and past.
In the back Mike D, Ed, and Riley talked about mass murder. Opposite ends of the conversation spectrum.
The next morning I hung out with Mike D, both feeling like ass.
We went to Sobeys for some FRIED CHICKEN.
I ended up napping all afternoon, thinking waaay too much.
Work was dead, I worked by myself for three hours and had six customers.
Amy came and met me at work around 10 30, when 11 hit we headed to Gus’s.
Before we went to bar I had to drop off a few Christmas pins.
I think they’re a real success, so much so that maybe I’ll just make a new edition every year.
The show at Gus’s was awesome.
The Hold never disappoints me.
There was a three hundred pound thirty five year old yuppie reliving his teenage years.
He was all over that pit.
I passed out even more pins, I even got asked by random strangers for some.
I ended up sitting at a table with Meghan, Toby, Ross, and Dan all night.
Mike D wasn’t far behind but he seemed to be caught up in conversation with some sketchy characters that occasionally he would ask me to save him from.
By the end of the night it was decided that we should rent a Charles Bronson movie.
We made the trek to Video Difference and ended up with 40 Year Old Virgin and the Bronson movie.
Although we only got through the 40 Year Old version there is a movie night waiting to happen upon arrival back in the city.
Fourteen day rentals are terrific.
Ross is a pretty interesting character, full of energy and things to say.
I had lots of fun that night, getting to know people more than just a casual hello and 2 minute drunk conversation.
I arrived back at my house at 6 in the morning to find Mike D passed out in my bed.
I crashed immediately.
That fucking alarm clock is sent by the devil.
I ended up waking around 11.
Mike D went home and I packed my shit.
Savannah arrived right on time and we waited for our drive to NB.
Dave seemed like an awesome guy, we did that chit-chat conversation thing forever.
I suck at chit-chat, I just like to tell stories and share ideas.
When we got to the city we waited for my dad in the mall entrance.
I got into the car and lit a smoke, the man fucking asked me for one.
My jaw dropped to the floor, my whole life dad has bitched about cigarette smoke.
But here he was puffing away on my menthol cigarette like a champ.
Shocked, absolutely shocked.
He made me hamburgers and all was forgiven.
I told him I probably won’t be continuing with school after next semester.
He didn’t seem too surprised.
Anika is doing great, I gave her as many hugs and kisses as I thought she’d let me.
We watched movies together and played with Robe’s keyboard.
Visiting the family is always exciting the first few days.
By the end of this trip I’ll be crying to get back to the city.

TRURO

I got to work on Sunday, it was supposed to be an easy 3 hour shift.
The idiot I was working with burned 6 pans of bread AND 6 pans of cookies.
We were off to a rough start already.
I then sent him home out of sheer annoyance and worked a supper rush by myself.
Mark is awesome.
SEVEN staff members were hanging out, watching me be swamped by customer after customer.
WAAY too much work to get done, and not one of them helping.
Mark started helping and then told them to get off their ass and help too.
Which was brilliant, within 15 minutes they had everything done.
Thank you Higgins.
The staff party was alright.
Turkey dinner, lots of apple pie.
I ended up sitting with Todi for most of the night.
He drank everybody's leftover beer and got ridiculously drunk.
Around 10 we took off and went to Alex's.
They had the ends of a potluck still going on.
We got stoned and watched Street Fighter.
What an awful movie, but when you watch movies with Alex, Craig, and Malcolm the commentary is the best part.
I laughed from start to finish.
I worked forever the next day.
I headed to Julia's for scrabble.
When I got there, DMC was leaving and they were all playing Trivial Pursuit.
Based on the fact that I took over DMC's almost won game, I totally won!
Thank you Sphinx.
TRURO IS THE BEST ALL AGES SCENE.
Man.
Tuesday is my favorite day of the past week.
I had to pull some sweet lying and avoid my house most of the day.
I hung out with Julia and Melissa most of the day, eating milk chocolate.
Ala, Alex, DMC, Stephen and myself all went to Truro for a crrrrrrrazy show.
The show was sold out within 15 minutes.
What the fuck is that? How does that even happen?
Stephen had to be all "I'm fromthe Herald, were with the bands" to get us in.
Which is RIDICULOUS.
The kids were insane, soooo much intensity was going on in that room.
It smelt like teenager, it felt like teenager, it was teenager trouble.
They kind of scared me a little bit, but I liked it.
You could feed off these kids' energy.
The 'oi, oi, oi' pile up was awesome, the constant floor punching and moshing.
I don't think those kids felt pain, or maybe it was just all the punk rock created some sort of force field.
I feel like an idiot describing this show, but damn, words fail me.
All the bands were awesome, kids moshed for Gilbert Switzer.
The Hold set was amazing, Darcy sure knows how to work a crowd.
TMWSD and Be Bad closed up the night and slapped everybody in the face while doing so.
I don't know, you had to be there.
I had a smile on my face 97% of the time.
The 3% that I didn't is my own stupid fault.
After tons of debating, the only band to follow us to BigStop was the Hold.
But, BEHOLD, 24hour BigStop doesn't apply in the winter.
We ended up just me, Alex, Ala and Stephen at Freeman's.
Spending way too much money on small food portions.
I couldn't stop thinking about the whole thing.
I want to go to shows in Truro all the time.
Alright, enough about Truro.
Last night was Bearly's.
I think I used up all my adjectives while describing Truro.
Next time, I'll be all over Wednesday.

PICTURES

Alright so DMC everyone's favorite sober party-goers has put up his pictures from the benefit. Here are some of my favorites that document the night quite nicely. If you want to check the whole lot out check out Dave's livejournal foool! http://www.livejournal.com/users/stolendave/

How can Be Bad be so good?

Eben the bearded wonder

Tobias being all photogenic

The Bad Motels, would it be lame to make a vacancy joke?

Matt kicking it fresh on the drums

The Bad Motels covering the Stooges with help from Ubed D, and Mr. America

Scribbler (Alex rocking the one piece snow suit)

Craig, my favorite vocalist

The Grass keeping it for realzzzz

Jeff Coll 5 "oh no, oh no, oh no no no no no"

Montgomery Moth, floats like a moth, stings like in YO FACE

Too sexy Brad Lock, who almot missed the show for 50cent!

Gilbert Switzer CRAZZZZYWAVE

Punk rock Princess Meghan

Derrick makes all the girls wet with those shades.

Lindsay Lohand-Slapper, feeling my own crazywave.

This is what all that madness helped me raise. THE CASH!

"I CAN'T TAKE IT." - Nathan

I have never seen such an a big early turn-out.
Where do I even start on this show.
Before I left for the show, a few people dropped by.
I cleared the air with a friend, and I'm glad I got the answer I wanted.
When we got there the bar staff was super friendly.
They knew my name and said to ask if I needed anything.
Be Bad set up and played a great set.
Even the bar staff was getting into it.
I could actually hear Toby this time, which has been my one complaint since the first time I saw Be Bad.
The Bad Motels also did an excellent job.
Marc called me a 'nazi' a few times.
I was drunk and seriously did not want people to go over their set time limit.
They played a song for Mike D, Uber D and Lindsay not-D.
Troy got on stage and sang along with the Stooges song they dedicated to him.
I have all of this madness on video, I wish I could host that much video online.
They dedicated the same song as usual to me.
Things start getting a little hazy here.
See, before I left, I thought ahead of time.
Usually bar drinks are 3.75 - 4.25 so I had a pint with me.
It turns out drinks there were 2.75 (making them more awesome).
But you know, I couldn't just leave this extra booze hanging out.
I ran from one side of the room to the other all night long.
Hugging people, saying thank you, making conversation, catching up with people, it was exhausting.
Craig started out the Scribbler set with an acoustic song thats on their noise cd.
I announced a beard contest, I have a weird obsession what can I say.
I think the votes went something like Eben - 3, Toby - 1, Beardo - 3857389573, Troy - 2, Stephen - 2, and DMC - 1.
Let me explain what happened and why Stephen ended up winning.
That sly bastard tried to drop a 100$ donation in the money box without being noticed.
Ofcourse it was immediately brought to my attention, and I proceeded to tell every single person in the bar.
I hugged Stephen so many times, and when it came time to announce the winner, Stephen won based on me being to overwhelmed with his generosity.
There was an outburst, and people started chanting 'Beardo'.
What an awesome night.
Jeff Coll 5 played next, their set always makes me smile, and dance my face off.
That last song is deadly.. 'oh no, oh no, oh no no no no no".
The Grass got on stage after that.
I have a hard time believing everybody stayed on schedule.
They dedicated Fortunate Son by CCR to me, they do an awesome cover of that song.
The Moth shortly after, who rocked it out hard.
The night was nearing an end and Gilbert Switzer was up next.
I gave a thank you speech that I don't quite remember, its on video though.
*thumbs up*
I also screamed 'craaaazywave' before they got on stage.
Whew.
Anyways their set was ridiculous, I danced so much.
I tried to Ride the Pink Tiger too because it just seemed worth while. ( I can't believe its not wild )
Ed was not a willing participant however.
Things wrapped up quite nicely and I made 750$!!!
Derrick gave me and Meghan a ride to my house.
Nathan, Mike D, Josh and Ed hung out for most of the night.
At 4 in the morning we all crashed.
Mike D set my alarm clock for 8 45 and couldn't figure out the mechanics to shut it off.
So at 9 I gathered the troops and we went for Vienna breakfast.
Everybody except for me and Alex Currie seem to fucking hate their breakfast.
I think its good.
We went to MusicStop and played with all the instruments.
Meghan decided to buy a 900$ beautiful guitar.
She looked really happy about it, smile was stuck on her face.
I bought a winter jacket, well my dad bought me a winter jacket.
I think its the first good winter jacket I've owned since grade 10.
The day continued at my house where the boys talked about celebrity dinners and 'I can't take it'.
I called my mother some time between leaving show and morning.
Finally it was time to take my hung over self to work.
I got lots of work visits which is always appreciated.
Troy came and had supper with me.
I took the longest break ever, no more 100% work effort out of this girl.
When Troy took off towards the bank, Amy showed up when I was midway finishing my smoke.
She bought a me a strawberry sunday it was wicked.
Finally Nathalie showed up too, I love when my friends visit me.
Time goes by faster and I don't feel like killing myself.
This particular co-worker spends her time talking about smoking pot although shes pregnat, drinking at our staff party, 50cent, gang fights, and other ridiculous shit I don't care about.
She does everything in super slow speed usually sitting in a chair.
Are you kidding me?
Todi let me leave early, and I headed down to Gus's Pub.
I just missed Scribbler's set.
The Tragedies, HotShotEpworthBot, and Spincycle Squre played.
I was in a terrible mood, I can't do the sober bar thing.
I feel like punching everyone in the face.
Adrian and New Wave walked home with me.
I talked to Meghan on the computer forever.
That girl is awesome and makes me smile.
She says super nice things and none of it comes off as fake.
She brings out my loudness.
I like it.
Friday, I woke up and had a lunch date with Blanchard.
We went to the Dairy Deli and talked about his mice.
I went to visit Leah for a minute.
I went to Frenchy's and found a mother fucking toaster!
Oh man.. I'm going nuts with the toasting now, WATCH OUT NOW.
Ed and I had a major snowball fight on the front porch.
Robe came over here to drop off a small Casio keyboard for Anika and a donation.
He stuck around for a bit.
Stephen, Jenna and company showed up and we headed to Julia's.
I stuck around for a bit but the call of a Fortunate Song cover was too much.
I dragged my possee to Blanchard's, and danced like a crazy lady.
I did numerous stupid things not worth talking about.
I also decided I'm done drinking for a little bit.
A few months ago I made that same decision but different problems arose and squashed it.
It was for wrong reason that I decided to cut down.
This time it'll be for me and not anyone else.
I got told I mix my drinks like a man.
Wonderful.
I met the people who are putting my face on a pin.
This is going to be wicked, my face on a 100 pins.
Everybody I give one to better sport that shit proudly.
Right so, I left the party around 3 30 in the morning and we went back to Julia's.
Jenna's brother smoked some hash with me it was wicked.
I went home and passed out, screw nachos.
Alex, Nathalie, Adrian, myself and Stephen went on a used clothing adventure.
First Value Village where I bought the following tapes.
Nothin' But the Hits (feature, You Spin Me Right)
Supertramp - Breakfast in America
ABBA - The Magic of ABBA
Nat King Cole - The best of
Tina Turner - Private Dancer
Madonna - True Blue
My kitchen is now a classic dance party.
Meghan still has my Gilbert Switzer tape, I need that back.
It was perfect for making food in the kitchen.
We hit up Taco Bell afterwards.
Final destination, Frenchy's.
I went to work, which was extremely boring.
I got to leave early.
I went to Leah's for a bit.
Went to get Adrian, Jenna came over, we went to Godwin's.
I got people to play me some songs on the piano.
Adrian and I made a dirt bag meal, Kraft Dinner, Dante Rice and potatoes.
He went home and I passed out.
That bout brings us up to date.
EXCEPT.
My extended family is insane.
Denis' mother is selfish and refused to keep Anika's cat on the grounds that it 'smells'.
So Moose has been given to another home, they want to change his name, which is ridiculous.
Also fucking Christmas drama, who spends what where and with who and how much time.
WHO CARES! Insignificant bullshit.

benefit

soooo.. Failed another class.
3 out of 5 ain't bad.
I am seriously wasting my time.
BUT.. on the other hand.
The classes I do enjoy I get As.
Whats wrong with me?
I didn't go to my final exam on Monday.
I already wrecked the class by not doing the essay anyways.
Adrian came and postered this city with me.
It was an awesome time.
Postering is fun, but I can see how it would suck to go alone.
When we were done, I went to Julia's.
The food was ridiculously awesome, full of cheese.
Cheese is the best thing ever invented.
Emily and I decided that getting drunk was more important than scrabble.
We drank and talked about boys.
Rockin4$$$s was great.
Lots of great bands played.
Nobody won the money, which is sad.
I won't be here for the 800$ night.
I am pissed.
I had some kid of weird fight with Leah.
It was ridiculous, I hope we make up later.
but I'm not saying I'm sorry.
Screw that.
She lent this sweater out to people for 8 months.
I get it for a week, get so many compliments that I felt good about myself for 2 minutes.
And she loses it.
Maybe I should work on my self-esteem, but damn that was a good sweater.
anyways. First fight with anyone from Halifax.
Or anyone I deeply cared about.
Leah is one of my favorites based on her level head.
I got a hug from Savannah.
Yeah.
My cultural studies exam went well.
I finished relatively early and got some good rants in.
Basically opposing everything we learned in class.
She said opposition is good if you can back it.
I think I did that, but we shall see when the grades get posted.
Work was alright.
Nothing extremely special happened.
I have to stop thinking about sex.
Or complaining about its lack.
This time a year ago I didn't even know what kind of good that shit was.
I'd pay money to go back to ignorance on the subject.
Ignorance can be bliss if you're horny.
Why is this blog public?
Who cares anyways.
This morning's exam was brutal.
I flashed North Street today.
God damn wrap around skirts.
Dave got hired back at Subway.
We never have much to say to each other, but we tease each other a lot.
I missed that.
The show is tonight and I'm nervous.
I hope everybody comes out.

I walked to work with Ed and Rob.
I had to go pick up a 50cent after party ticket for a co-worker.
It snowed from the start of my shift until the end.
It was winter wonderland when I got out of there.
During my smoke breaks I'd go dance in the snow.
At 11 when Todi showed up for work I went on a mayo adventure.
On the way to the other Subway I saw some guy beating up on his girlfriend.
I said 'stop' because well, who lets that happen?
Lucky for me though there was a group of guys walking behind me.
They helped out, because I don't really know what I could of done.
I left work in good spirits though.
I worked alone for 3 hours.
Working alone makes me happy, and I make great tips.
Someone I work with said "You're a good worker, but not a good co-worker".
Thats probably true.
Mitch didn't have any power at his place.
Ed came with me to visit them
We just sat around talking, Mitch and Frank played the acoustic guitar.
When the lights came back on we just shut them off again.
When I got home there wasn't any power at our house either.
In the morning, Natalie came over for potatoes.
Kristen dropped by too, having a porch right on the street makes for good bumping into people.
Instead of potatos I decided to go nuts and make corn fritters.
The party disbanded and I invited Ed to come to a potluck with me.
I got to see Gabrielle, who doesn't come to Halifax nearly enough.
It was also Skylar's birthday so cake was to be had.
I invited my friend Amy out to the Khyber with us.
The Khyber was awesome.
1st floor: DBN, jeff coll 5, annnd A/V.
2nd floor: art and cake.
3rd floor: djs.
I danced from 11 until 4 in the morning.
Amy got ridiculously drunk, it was insane.
I saw Matt, which always makes me smile.
A/V is awesome for dancing.
When the 1st floor closed, the 3rd became the paaaarty.
Which sucked for smoking, but whos needs smoking when you can dance?
There was soo many terrific people just dancing their hearts out.
Stephen is a crazy dancer, I loved it.
Mark and Ed kept yelling at each other ridiculously.
They were serving cheap beer, but that doesn't do much for me.
It finally shut down around 4.
We walked home and ended up seeing people from the bar.
Mike D and Godwin were racing up hills with what seemed like strangers.
Meghan and Mitch ambushed me and Adrian in the commons with snowballs.
It was quite the insane night of drunken foolishness.
I made potatos and passed out.
It was an exhausting night of dancing and snow.
Work was awesome today.
Trainings are fun.
They do all the prep and I can mess around with customers all day.
Besides this trainee started a water fight with me.
They usually don't have the sack to do that shit right off the bat.
I liked it, shows character.
I also got some more working alone done.
A drunk guy came in and was being a bit creepy.
Sort of just hanging around and talking.
I was wishing for customers so bad.
Dave, the fish clone and Nathalie showed up at my house at points this evening.
All the better to keep me from doing this essay.
I hate this essay.
No need to shave anymore.
I want to say 'back to the drawing board' here.
But I'm afraid if makes it seem like I style my body hair or something.
I dont... just.. to clear things up.

Wednesday.

My favorite day of the week hands down.
Natalie came over around 1.
I spend way too long in the shower.
We walked downtown in the bitter cold.
We both had banking issues to deal with.
I made her some potatoes and started drinking when we got home.
I called everybody on my phone list and invited them over.
I've always been nervous about inviting people over.
I have this irrational fear they won't come and I'll be by myself.
Maybe because it happened more than once in high school.
The following people made an appearance.
Julia, Emily, Mike D, Derrick, Meghan, Adrian, Alex, Craig, Ed, Ryan, Jenna, and Justin.
Julia made.. scanope.. dkfjkdjfdfkdj something, which was delicious.
Emily made cream cheese rolls which was also fabulous.
Adrian brang over sugar waffers which was hilarious.
I, ofcourse, made potatoes with too many spices.
I drank way too fast and ended passed out on my floor on Adrian by 10.
Sad really.
I need to get my shit together.
Anyways, I regained consciousness and we all headed down to Bearlys.
Alfred, Stephen, Ann, Katie, Jen, and Nathan showed up eventually too.
It was a pretty big crowd this time around.
Lets see if I can remember what was sang.
Meghan did Blitzkrieg Bop and Hair of the Dog.
Nathan sang David Bowie and Love Shack with Jen.
Mike D and Nathan did Nights on Broadway.
Alfred sang Come and Feel the Noise (?).
Stephen sang some Kinks, and Rave On with Julia.
Julia and Jenn both did Get Into the Groove.
Adrian sang I Want to be Sedated, and Hot for Teacher.
Thats all I can muster.
I danced a lot and sobered a bit.
Stephen gave us a drive home and that ends that.
The next morning I called Julia to see if she wanted to poster.
Rob from the Rock Gardens lent me his stapler.
I think thats the first time in my life I wrote 'lent' instead of 'borrowed'.
Ed and Mitch came along and we postered for hours.
Stopped by the One World for a bit too.
We went to Economy Shoe Shop for lunch.
A waiter there gave me 5$ for my benefit.
Everybody was feeling fruity and in the need to buy fruit.
We stopped by Pete's, the piano man played Copacabana for me.
Tobias took some posters too and made little hand out flyers too.
The Mark Black speaking engagement was a riot.
He had some good points about those mentally handicapped actors.
When it finished up we decided to stick around for a game of scrabble.
A bunch of Korean kids showed up for kareoke.
It was brilliant, couldn't of been anymore awesome.
When it was time to take off for Gus's I decided I wanted to hit up the kareoke too.
I sang Like A Virgin and Dan, Julia, and Ed danced for me.
I have a feeling DMC has some pictures of this embarassing adventure.
The show at Gus's was a good time.
I want to be friends with dude.
But he doesn't seem to want to be friends with me.
Oh well, I'll keep trying.
I like his brain, it'd be terrible to lose excess to it.
Meghan was hilarious as usual.
Shes all kinds of awesome to hang out with.
Nathan showed up in the middle of the Gilbert Switzer set, so did Cory.
Gilbert Switzer was a good time.
Art fag girl was annoying and made an ass out of herself.
Or maybe I missed the point.
Some sort of performance piece perhaps?
Or I'm a bitch.
Those explanations all work for me on some level.
The Million Dollar Rock Band are not for me.
Maybe I was in a bad mood but I didn't appreciate their set one bit.
Nathan and Ed came home with me.
We made eggs and Nathan and I talked about lack of sex.
Having guys as friends is fucking awful.
But totally worth it.
This afternoon Emily and Adrian joined me for lunch at Spartan's.
It was delicious and I got some apple pie.
Anika's desease is long term.
They figured out everything that has to do with it.
Most of the cases of this end up with either kidney transplants or dialysis.
Shes going to be on a medication they give cancer patients for next 10 -15 years.
ALSO.
My mother has no medicare.
Merry fucking Christmas.

I woke up to a 6 year old poking my cheeks.
She wanted eggs at 7 in the morning.
I made the fucking eggs, and we ate together at the table.
We hung out all morning until it was time for her to go to the hospital.
I headed out to the Mount for one class, slept through it and then left early.
I took the bus downtown and went to get Leah at work.
She had asked her boss the day before if she could leave early to come to the hospital with me.
Then her boss gives her all kinds of bullshit over it.
It took an hour for Leah to finally get out of there, by then Natalie had shown up too.
Natalie can't go home for Christmas, I feel bad for her.
Children's Hospitals are too much.
The first thing we saw when we got to the elevator was a little girl, she looked so sickly and sad.
It brought tears to my eyes.
Too much for me.
I was glad when I finally layed eyes on my little sister she was doing great.
She was in this magical play room.
Seriously has the best set up for crafts ever.
I made Anika do crafts because I wanted to.
Sparkles, they had SPARKLES, I haven't sparkled anything in ages.
The nurse came in to check Anika's blood pressure and temperature.
The thing thats struck me is that open seeing the nurse, Anika turned her head for the temperature machine, then she immediately stuck out her arm for the blood pressure test.
It was like a routine.
That shit should never have become routine.
Stephen came to get us at the hospital.
He showed me some 50's sleaze, with Betty Page, hot lady that one.
Julia, Eben, Meghan, Stephen and I, all went to the CopperPenny for supper.
It wasn't a very good meal, but it was fun.
When we finished we all went to scrabbler except for Meghan.
I got absolutely slaughtered the first game, it was embarassing.
I didn't do as awful the second time around.
Hanging out with those cats was awesome.
They know so much about everything music its fucking scary.
The group last another member, Stephen drove us all to Reflections and headed home.
I got to see tons of people that just make me generally happy in their presence.
Jenna (who I found out make those cookies), Mike D, Emily, Julia, Katie.. and the list goes on.
I got walked home.
We hung out for a long time at my house.
I liked it.
I'm also an idiot, and can't handle myself like a human in the most basic situations.
Next time, I'll do better.
Julia came with me to the hospital the following afternoon.
My little sister was confined to her bed for 24 hours.
She seemed alright though, her rash spread a little, but nothing to bad.
Tomorrow we get some results and see what has to happen in the future.
The little girl who shares the bed next to hers has been battling the same disease for 4 years.
The doctor said it was the first time they had two patients with that disease at the same time, sharing a room.
Most doctors only see 1 or 2 cases of this a year.
I went to work for a visit and ended up having to work.
I felt awful for being late and worse for telling Meghan I'd go see her.
After work I went to Leah's.
She fed me and got me high, sweet sweet Leah.
She also stole cheesecake from work.
Happy birthday Nathalie!
The benefit show poster is finally done, and spreading the word has begun.
Here it is, Alex makes the most amazing posters.

sexy

I met up with Meghan at the liquor store.
We headed down to the party.
When we got there one band had already played and Eviction Party was playing.
I walk in, look at the band, and Todi from work is rocking out.
I couldn't even believe it.
We never get a chance to talk since my shift is ending when he gets there.
Now that I've actually spoken to him, I predict incredible stupidness at the Subway staff party.
We decided to bring our own stereo and listen to nothing but load aggressive music over the rap.
It has crazy written over it.
Who knew Mark Black was a lead singer?
I enjoyed the bands I got to see, it was fun.
Hanging out afterwards with the few remaining party-gooers was fun too.
Dan was there, I never see him unless hes working and being sober.
There was this girl there too.
She told me she saw me around and always wanted to tell me my pink beads were pretty.
It was a great compliment.
I got told I was sexy that night too.
It wasn't as great as the previous compliment.
I gathered the masses to join me on Duncan St for the orange party.
First though, we went to Ted's (another co-worker who turns out awesome) house.
I met some people that I take the bus with everyday and have never said hi to.
They seemed alright.
The orange party was great.
I was way too drunk though.
There was some flirting happening previously in the night.
Faced with these situations, I just pounded back the booze.
It makes it easier I guess, or makes me not as awkward.
I don't think I want to be flirted with at the moment though.
Julia was at the orange party.
She wants to start a revolution too.
Two revolutions being started at the same time?
Could they live together?
Would they fight each other and re-create the French Revolution?
I guess we'll have to see how things develop.
Julia is definitely going to have to come up with a sexy name for it.
We danced and sang to some of my favorite songs, Julia is fun to hang with.
I called Jenna.
We hung out for a bit and decided to take off.
I couldn't even focus on conversation anymore.
She came over and we made potatoes until 5 in the morning.
I went to work ridiculously early to make the day go by.
At 8 my little sister, mother and Denis all walked into Subway.
I ran for hugs.
Leah, Natalie and Mitch came over to meet Anika.
When family went to sleep I stepped over to Alex's house.
They were all sitting around watching Discovery channel documentaries.
Craig rented a box set.
Someone left cookies in my mail box.
Anika and Lindsay were written on the package.
I don't know who did, but it means a lot.
It means a lot that you put Anika's name on it.
She loved it.
Anika told me she was nervous about going to the hospital.
She is way too cute to be worried.
What am I going to do for her birthday?
I want it to be amazing and crazy and fun.
I wish I could break her out of the hospital without my mother killing me.
Take her to the park or something.
But I guess the ducks are gone now.

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Who fucking cares when you play a show?
When the fuck did half my friends become pre-madonnas?
Everybody is too much of a dickface.
Dear Lord what would you do if you had to open this show.
End of the fucking world.
Do I really need to explain to friends the dynamic of trying to get as many people to stay out and at the show?
Is the concept that hard to grasp?
The best part is I got drunk and called half of them on it.
"We don't care"'.
LIES.
They do care, because people talk and tell me that you care.
Meghan said Gilbert Switzer would open.
Which is ridiculous and not happening.
They're not an opening band or atleast not as this show.
I'm drawing names and people can go fuck themselves.
Why is this even a big deal?
I'm never organizing anything ever again.

aaaaaaaaanika.

Mike D actually looked in good form when we woke up.
He took the bus with me out to school and we parted ways.
I got into a fight in class over the merit of 'black dot' shoes by Adbuster.
I won.
Go buy your none slave labour shoes on Quinpool and don't give your money to Adbuster.
Cultural Studies is interesting, but not something a person could major in.
I wasted the afternoon away reading some Philosophy of Andy.
Work was TIGHT.
My co-worker sat on her ass all night studying for a final exam.
Yeaaaaaah.
I got to serve customers and sing "Copacabana" all night.
My roommate got me high Friday morning.
Terrible idea.
To calm myself done and step away from the fucking computer, I asked Ed to come to Sobeys.
Ever done groceries stoned?
I used all my cigarette money on food.
Which is a good thing, but god damnit I want smokes more than Crispers.
Work was a riot today.
I crippled Sarah by accident.
I get a little over-excited when it comes to hugs, what can I say.
So she left early and I finished out the shift by myself.
I'd rather work by myself, its... freeing I guess.
I talked to my mother.
They'll be getting to Halifax around 8 tomorrow.
Anika needs some blood tests, urine tests and general tests on Monday.
Tuesday they'll be doing a biopsy.
This benefit show is definitely a go.
I have 6 bands now I do believe.
I fired off an email to the manager of the North End Pub, asking if he'd stay open later.
This thing better be a success, I hate organizing things.
I'm way to nervous.
All of you better come and be crazywave at this thing.

whhhhhat

I called Leah after my day of blushing.
I asked her to please feed me.
I'm getting sick of potatoes.
No matter how many oignions and spices you add, its still potatoes.
We went to the Superstar and got some goods.
She whipped up a masterpiece of tofu goodness.
I kind of like the tofu sometimes, depending in what.
Don't tell Leah, its funnier this way.
I came home and didn't do any work.
The next morning I went to class.
I got my Pocahantus paper back.
I got a B+ which makes me happy.
I went over to Natalie's in the afternoon.
Who knew Cat Woman was bad?
I feel lied to by myself.
We went to book, record and candy stores.
I bought soo much candy.
Fucking candy.
We went to get Leah at work and decided to hit up Harry Potter.
I cried, I can't handle young people dying.
Christ, I'm a SAP!
After the movie I came home and started getting stuff together for this benefit show.
I asked the following bands to play; Scribbler, the Bad Motels, the Montgomery Moth, Windomearle, Be Bad and Gilbert Switzer.
If this all does happen, its going to be such a crazy diversity of music.
Hopefully lots of people will come out.
Meghan gave me the idea to video tape it and have people say things to Anika.
I like it, and I'm sure she would just love it.
I didn't go to school on Wednesday, I had some crazy cleaning to get out of the way.
Meghan and Mike D came over.
We cooked up a storm.
Meghan made something with rice and chickpeas, it had a name, but I can't pronounce that crazyness.
Mike D made mini pizzas.
I made potatoes and oignions with tons of spices.
It was all very delicious.
We got ridiculous with the old school rap.
Some of the bands were confirmed by the time we left.
This makes me soo happy.
I'm so glad I got to meet such amazing people who are just willing to help.
Bearly's was CRAZY.
We went to pick up Amy, walked down to Bearly's.
My roommates were all hanging out already, New Wave, Ben, Ann and Eben showed up too.
It was wicked.
I was hammered, and I've frankly never seen Mike D that drunk.
Its a miracle he made it through the walk home.
Meghan sang Tooo Drunk to Fuck, Mike sang Prince and something by the Spin Doctors, New Wave did his regular routine.
One of my roommates busted out some U2 which is groos, but expected.
THAT ABOUT WRAPS THAT UP.